It just wouldn't be right

I couldn't sleep because
I was afraid I would fall asleep
I couldn't sleep because
I was afraid when I wake up
I'd thought It was just a bad dream
and then I had to realize
it wasn't, and face it again
I couldn't sleep because
I was afraid of tomorrow
and staying awake would mean today
I couldn't sleep because
I was waiting, waiting
for it to go away
I couldn't sleep because
I felt broken
I couldn't sleep because
I did not understand
I couldn't sleep because
I was afraid
I couldn't sleep because
it made me sad
I couldn't sleep because
I didn't know how to deal
and I was afraid I couldn't deal at all
So I didn't sleep
I am exhausted