Spare me

A thousand times I've said this to myself
A thousand times I've said this outloud
One time too many
And never quite understood

Spare me the guilt in your eyes
Sapre me the smile and the lie
Take the unfortunate speech
Take whatever you need

More than you reckon I've silenced my voice
More than you reckon I've swollowed my words
One time too many
And never quite understood

Spare me the door closed behind you
Spare me the back of your head
Leave the fortunate kiss
Leave whatever you please

One more time I've unfolded my ears
One more time I've opened my eyes
One time too many
And never quite understood

Spare me the dreadfully sorry
Spare me the tear and the hand
Keep the uncountable times
Keep whatever you find

Stay a while if you must
But please
Spare me the crap
and truthfully say what is it you want