Sparks and Apples

Little spark burn brighter than before
Brighter than the sun
The way I know you know
Blind me and burn it all
All I knew before
Glow trhough the night
And I will follow
Be only my guide
And errase all the sorrow

I'll let the wind and the rain take away what remains

Roll apple roll
Over the concrete
Follow my path
Reach for your destination
And bring me back home

Don't

Don't ask me if I'm fine
Cos I'm not
Don't ask me for an answer
Coz I have none
Not today
Not tomorrow
I am dealing with this thing
The best I can
The best I know
Maybe I should know better
But I don't
So don't ask me if I'm fine
Coz I can't
Don't demand for explanations
Coz there´s none I can give you
At least not the one you wanna hear
Or the one I wanna give
So don't push me
Coz I'm fragile
And don't ask me if I'm fine
Coz the answer is I'm not

Spare me

A thousand times I've said this to myself
A thousand times I've said this outloud
One time too many
And never quite understood

Spare me the guilt in your eyes
Sapre me the smile and the lie
Take the unfortunate speech
Take whatever you need

More than you reckon I've silenced my voice
More than you reckon I've swollowed my words
One time too many
And never quite understood

Spare me the door closed behind you
Spare me the back of your head
Leave the fortunate kiss
Leave whatever you please

One more time I've unfolded my ears
One more time I've opened my eyes
One time too many
And never quite understood

Spare me the dreadfully sorry
Spare me the tear and the hand
Keep the uncountable times
Keep whatever you find

Stay a while if you must
But please
Spare me the crap
and truthfully say what is it you want

Amends / Tiny bottles

Some bottles were broken
Some bottles were stolen
Others I smiply can't find
The ones that have turn to bitter
The ones refilled with anger and doubt
Can't fix what I can't undo
Can't undo what I didn't do
My own private collection
Now incomplete
The trust that we've killed used to bind us
Kept us together
A rape of the mind
Most violent selection
of unspoken words that hurt from the distance
Now keeps us apart
No scent to remember is left
No memory but sadness we kept
Regret and remorse will now settle
With time we will even forget
We can pretend we can fix what is broken
We can return or replace whatever was stolen
But I can't bring trust back to life
Not without you

Unexpected

He´ll be back
when the ocean spits him out
Unprotected
Kiss the tide
she will bring the one back
So awaited
Break the vow
that you said you would not dare
And take him
Let the city take you in
She will protect you
Kiss the fire
He will keep you warm
Don't reject him
Trust the waves
they will bring him back to you
Neglected
You'll be back
I will let you go away
She'll return to me
So unexpected

Cry

In all those times
I never thought
I would become so numb at all
or that I was insensible
I always thought that I was strong
But now you think that I am weak
or that my heart has turned to ice
I can't believe that's what you see
There is much more inside of me
I'm not the kid I used to be
yet I'm still alive but you can't see
There's more of me than you believe
I can't cry now
I just need time
I need more time
I need you now to trust in me
I ask you now to wait for me
Just wait a while and you'll believe
I am not dead
You're just too scared
I'm not afraid
I need to feel comfortable
I need to know I'm not alone
Still I can't cry
I can't cry now
I need some time
I need more time
To let it out

Angel

I fell
Sank low
But I'm back on my feet
Back on my horse
Ready for battle
Willing to struggle
To get back what's mine

If only a feather left
To prove you were an angel

I've lost
Forsaken all
But I'm back to claim it
And back for more
Ready to breathe
Willing to drink it all
To take it and never let go

If only a feather left
Still proof you were an angel