Vows and Toasts and Cake and a Kiss

And it's not what I thought it would be And it's not what I thought we could be And it's not what I wanted us to be Those lies sugar-coated with a ring and a kiss Lies and promises sealed with a kiss And this is how it ends This is how it really ends

Deceitful mind and a heart so cruel...

How can he be so deceived by his own mind
How a thought can so betray him
And leave him wounded and defenseless
How cruel can his heart be when it laughs so loud
That even us can hear it
He is lonely in his restrain
In his darkness
So deprived form voice or tear
To scream or cry what he still keeps inside
And denies him of oblivion
Or sweet sleep
Or his smile
Though he tries
How can one not love him
How can one not love him in his sadness
In his beauty
In the comfort of his lie
Made up by his so deceiful mind
To pass the days and the hours
Accurately counted by the echoing beating of his heart
And the flow and the rush so vividly pulsate
Almost repulsive
How does he cope with the days after the days
When all is luring and promising
Yet empty or full of dismay
Nothing left but him alone
He would easily trade hard for happy
If he could
He would simply trade love for friend
If it was that simple
And he tries
He is willing but not ready

Inside

I want to walk with you
I want to make sweet love to you
Maybe I don't
Maybe I do

Books in my head
Thoughts on my shelf
There`s noone dear
Everyone fears

I cannot stay just another day
Still I'm here with you
With you

This room's full of tears
Nobody's here
People so blue
Noone is true
I find myself running away
Away from you

Tears on my skin
Sweat on my sheets
All I can find each time you leave
Each time I die

Pages unread
Letters unsent
Words never said
I'm still with you

Clocks in my chest
Hearts on the wall
Everything's fine
Everything's worng
My hands out in the rain waiting for you
For you

I want to walk with you
With you
Maybe I don't
But maybe I do

The doubt

I wish I knew what to say
I wish I knew where to stay
But I honestly don´t
And the wind keeps blowing out in the street
But it doesn`t say a word
The clock is not helping
Just keeps eating the time
The time I don't have and so desperately need
Always the doubt
The uncertainty I'm so so familiar with
My true friend
Most silent and violent enemy
Its quietness get so loud some times
I can barely breathe
I wish I knew any answer
I wish I had any question
But I sincerely believe that I don´t
And that little drop never stops falling
Always reminding the time that it's taking with it down the drain
I wish I could turn my self into liquid
I wish I could turn myself into smoke
I wish I could turn myself into time
And STOP
Stop for a while to reconsider
or consider at all
Why am I always so doubtful?
What am I always so scared of?
When am I going to learn?

Chairs

And the chairs were silently moving through the room
Low voices chattered
And the eyes were reading the words
Page upon page of books older than them
Even the wood of the tables could tell a thousand more stories
More stories than them all gathered together
No need for words they said
With every silence
With every unspoken word
It was all understood
And we thought we were strong
That we could endure it all
And make it through
Then we could change the world
So wrong we were
So wrong we are
And the chairs still silently moving across the room

Soy

soy como una lágrima perdida en el mar
nadie sabe donde estoy
si con tu boca no pruebas mi sabor
hoy no quiero ser
porque ayer me desperté
en un mundo que estaba del revés
tu ya no eras tu
y yo ya no era yo
dos extraños y una taza de café
eras el silencio en una calle abandonada
yo era como el hielo perdido en la montaña
nadie sabe donde estamos
si nuestras voces se quedan sin palabras
tengo tanto que decir
pero nada que explicar
soy las palabras en el diario
que terminan en el fuego
para calentar tus manos
hoy no quiero ser
porque mañana aún estaré
en un mundo que sigue del revés
tu no serás tu
yo no seré yo
dos nombres sin rostros
caminando entre la gente

To see you

I wanna see you
hiding behind trees
the wind slowly pacing
while you whisper your sweet words
and I wait for them to reach me
while I wait in the rain
I wanna see you
coming towards me
while I'm holding my breath
and your hand holds my hand
I wanna see you
so close
so I can kiss you